Yep. I'm there. I've been fighting the idea for a very, very long time. But, it wasnt until the last couple days that I have decided its not just an idea its the Lord tugging at my heart.
You see, it seems that I am a bit bi-polar. Not really, but if you look at the way I keep my house and kids you might think so.
One week I am ALL ABOUT SCHOOL. I'll have a great theme, new trays, fun crafts, great ideas and we will have a lot of fun and learn a lot. And the house will be a DISASTER.
The next week, I will be focused on the house! It will be SO CLEAN. There will be clean sheets on every one's bed, all the laundry will be washed and folded, a cleaned out fridge, great meals, and school will consist of reading a book and singing a song and coloring a picture.
The third week, I will be so tired of giving my all to everyone that I tend to spend about 3 days doing NOTHING, followed up with that terrible guilty feeling that motivates me to go ALL OUT and organize something. But, I usually only end up organizing it half way, and then it just sits.
Okay, so now that you all REALLY know me, I hope you will keep reading my blog lol! As you can see, I need a new plan. Er, wait, I guess I just need a plan, because I havent had one of those before.
I am a product of public schooling and over scheduling. Growing up, my family was always on the go. We didnt have time for a schedule, we were at the mercy of whatever activities we had signed up for, and fit things like eating and sleeping in where we could.
The idea of a schedule actually makes me a bit fearful. I am never on time for anything. 10 minutes late is my idea of early. I try to be on time, I really do. I just have a horrible inability to determine how long getting myself and kids ready to go will take me. I am always waaay off. A schedule means there are many opportunities to be late, and I dont want to spend my day feeling late for everything at my OWN house! I am also afraid of feeling like I run a military academy or something. Shouldnt life at home be fun and layed back?
Yet, with all these objections running around my head, I KNOW that something has to change. I dont want my kids to have to grow up in a home that never has a routine or a rhythm. I grew up going to church camp, which I LOVED. I loved the friends, and the fun, but I also loved the 'freedom.' And you know what? They had a SCHEDULE! Looking back, I loved the routine! I loved having time for all the different things that camp has to offer. I liked knowing what came next. I liked knowing that if I wasnt having fun, that I would be in only 28 minutes and 30 seconds.
I want that kind of routine for my kids. I also want to know where MY time is going. I have a funny feeling that I KNOW where it is going. This schedule may mean you will read less from me. On the other hand, it may mean you will read more meaningful posts as I will have less time to post meaningless things just to have an entry on a day.
The schedule has been written, and I plan to start it on Monday. I promise to keep you posted. In the meantime, please keep me in your prayers. IF this is really the Lord's will for my family, I know it could be met with some challenges. Please pray that this will go smoothly!