I am so very sorry for keeping you all waiting with my news. I went in for my appointment and they decided that because I am breastfeeding, they would skip the mammogram and go straight for an u/s. I have to say it was a bit strange being up there on the u/s table for something other then an u/s to look at a baby in my womb!
My nurse was amazing! Though she didnt know that bfing can delay the return of AF. She was totatlly astonished that I hadnt had a cycle in two years. I was surprised that I had to inform her of this, but hey she is supposed to know about breasts not ovaries and such!
She only scanned the exact spot that the lump is in. Its certainly there. Measures about .65 centimeters I think. She took a lot of pictures! Had me a bit nervous, but she was really nice and went to talk to a DR right away, who came in and spoke with me.
The Dr said that he believes it is just a lump of fat!!! Praise the Lord!! He does want me back in 6 months to verify that nothing has changed :) My friend Delanie's response was that she has never been so thrilled about a lump of fat in her life, I 100% agree!!!!!
And, I am pretty sure I now know what was causing the pain. I had my testing on Monday and on Tuesday, AF returned for the first time in 2 years. I didnt remember having pain before, but after 2 years I guess its not unusual to forget a few things :).
In other news, I had my testing on Monday, and my wisdom teeth out on Wednesday of the same week (left me sick and loopy for a week!). On Thursday we found out that we got the house we have been praying about since October!!! I jokingly had said wouldnt it be awesome to find out I dont have Cancer and FINALLY have a house to move to all in the same week? God is soooo Good! He provided just that!
So, yep, we are moving. Moving at Christmas time last year stunk so much I decided I couldnt wait to do it again. Grrr. I really want to go into more detail about moving and such, since I know that it has a lot to do with my lack of posting over the last few months. But, I will save that for another post of its own.
With moving comes a whole lot of new beginnings. I am thankful for the chance to leave this house and so many disappointments that have gone with it. Plus...even though we are renting we have been given the full go ahead to make the place 'ours.' So, many days have already been spent planning and painting. I will have TONS to show you all!
Its a big old farmhouse with enough spaces for a dedicated school room, a playroom, a room for the girls, a room for Charger, and office for DH, an office/library for me, and a storage room in addition to the living, and kitchen/dining. Plus it has a master bath attached to our master bedroom-the first time since we have had kids. Its not a new house and certainly has its challenges, but I am so excited about the possibilities. AND our new neighbors are also homeschoolers. They are right across the street-which is great as its about 1/2 a mile to the next house.
If I sound excited, I truly am. I am so thankful for what the Lord has provided for us. I am unbelievably thankful that I am not facing chemo or radiation. Believe me, I know how blessed I am. On the same day that I got my healthy results, my uncle lost his battle with throat cancer and went to be with the Lord.
I know my brush with cancer has brought me to a greater awareness of how many people are affected by breast cancer specifically. In high school, I volunteered for an organization called HIS KIDS. They help children and their families who have been diagnosed with termanially ill children. I thought that by working with them I had a good understanding of what it was like to have cancer strike your house. I realize that there is no way that I did.
Thankfully, I just stood at the edge and looked in this time. I thought through what it would be like to have to be sick and loose my hair and prepare my family for the idea that I may not be here much longer. It was THE WORST thoughts I have ever come up with in my life. I can not begin to explain the ache in the pit of my heart when I think of the concept of my babies not having me to mother them as they grow up.
It is certainly a wake up call and reminder that we dont know which day will be our last. We dont know what tomorrow holds. We are only given today. Now, the Bible specifically says not to worry about tomorrow. So, I will not worry. I will, however, continue to plan for the future. I have a whole list of things I want to do as we move to the new house.
This post is getting long, so I wont go into all my plans now. I promise that as soon as the holidays are over, the posting will start again. Thank you all for your prayers and your patience with me! I thank God for all of you!!!! God Bless you and Merry Christmas!!!